Helloooo World Tis A New Day.

As hard as this is for me to admit, most people that know me would say that I am very easy to approach and talk to but being my friend is somewhat of a challenge. I have an abrasive personality at times which is somewhat of a turn off to most people. I would like everyone to know however, that I am trying my darn hardest to embrace my more mellow side and just be a little bit warmer to those who love me. All of my friends know that I would ultimately do anything for them, even if we are going through a rough patch I will always look past that and help them. My friends mean the world to me. Me having friends means that there are actually individuals in the world that have felt the wrath of my ever changing mood and still stuck with me. Its not that I am a hateful person. The truth is, I am overly opinionated and extremely passionate with my opinions. Even when I know something may be wrong, I rationalize to the point where I make myself believe that it is right. I get angry over the littlest things and annoyed with people very easily. I speak my mind more that needed and I am nosy. I am obnoxious and loud when I am happy and even when I am extremely happy I still have a hard time outwardly expressing that. What I am trying to say is I am not perfect. But I have friends that understand that about me and accept that. That no matter what I say to them, they know its just me being me. And they know that no matter what happens, if they just come talk to me I will never get mad. When I speak my mind, I mean exactly what I say. There is never a hidden meaning. I wont argue. Its not worth it to me. I say exactly what I need to say and I stick with it unless I see that I am wrong. I will always give people time to say their piece and usually after all is said and done I am over it. What is the point of throwing away a friendship that was once so strong over an argument. But the one thing I can not stand is when I admit to doing wrong, and I change and make efforts but the other person doesnt admit to doing wrong, doesnt change at all, and just disregards everything I say because im being "mean". Whatever. No one is perfect. But at the end of the day at least there are some of us that can admit that and work on that. You are never stuck being the same person. You have the ability to change yourself. You have the power to look at your life and say wow a few people have pointed out that I have been doing this so maybe I should evaluate myself and try to change that. I know i cant please everyone but at least I can show an effort. Thats all.

I am starting a new life in one month. I made a point this summer to clear my life of all my annoyances and start making my life better. The people I am with now are the people I want to stay with me in this new life. The people that I have trusted. While some let me down, others came in and showed that they were worth keeping around. People surprise me every now and then and in the grand scheme of things I found a few amazing people that I feel more comfortable around then ever before. Its hard letting go of things when they meant so much to you but when youve been thrown out and forgotten about then whats the point. I am such a happy person right now and I dont need the strain of people bringing me down and making me feel bad about myself. I dont mean to sound vain or selfish or whatever but at the end of the day, im the one that has control over my life, my happiness, and the people I surround myself with. What the point of being sad, unhappy, or angry if I can control that. Yes. I will speak my mind to you and be honest with you no matter wha. And im sorry if people do not respect my honesty but whats worse? being lied to? or hearing the truth? I think thats a pretty easy one.....

I am a nice person. I feel like I shouldnt have to state that. And I hate that this post is mostly about me but i feel like since I am starting over. Starting fresh. I should just get all of that out there. Ya I have faults. Everyone does. I have accepted them and have started trying to better myself. Thats all I can do.

-Kim

I hate it when Sweaters shed all over black dresses.

I think im grey. Im wearing a grey sweater and my skin is oddly similar to the color of the sweater. I like to say my skin color is not pale but "alabaster" it sounds classier. Ive grown to embrace my pale skin but there is still once thing that I cant stand about being a pale kid. Pictures with tan people. Whenever I take pictures with tan people, which is like all the time, i stick out like a sore thumb. And sometimes theres this like little blur around me when its dark and the flash is on. Its quiet annoying but im slowly learning to love the pale kid blur as well.

My job consists of answering phones "good morning/afternoon *insert company*......one second let me transfer you" so one can assume that 9 hours of this daily is quiet boring. I spend my days on facebook stalking random people (creeeeepy) staring aimlessly at walls and looking at trees outside. The cool thing about looking outside is lately Ive been able to watch the tree turn from a bright green to a beautiful orangey redish color. It makes me happy. The color change is a reminder that a) my school starts soon. b) my favorite holidays are coming up (halloween, thanksgiving, christmas, and of course my birday) and c) I can finally wear my beloved tights and I can dress like a fool and no one will care coz i can blame it on "cold weather" yesssssss.

Whenever I feel stressed or whenever I have something really on my mind i peel my cuticles off. And if anyone has tried to do this one will know that cuticles dont just come off clean and easy. Its a really painful process and i usually end up with about 3 bandaids on. So i sit here typing, looking at my mangled cuticles wondering whats on my mind. Im not unhappy, im actually happier than ive been in a while, im not stressed out coz ive finally rid myself of stressful things, and i feel like i always say whats on my mind so theres really not much on it sitting there dwelling..... i need to get to the root of this current cuticle peeling coz if i dont.....im gonna have to break out the bandaids and ive gone through about 10 of those in the past 2 weeks. damn it.

-Kim

They say time heals everything But I'm still waiting

I thought it was good.

Everything happens for a reason.

I see your true colors.

Stand up for me for once.

We arent perfect.

I know your hurting.

Your not the only one.

Were all busy.

I dont know.

But i do.

You have time.

Believe me.

Ive been busy.

I am busy.

Youve changed.

I know Im stubborn.

But you. Of All people.

Know that ill listen.

That I will compromise.

But i cant do that.

If your not willing to change.

We had something good.

Ya I messed up.

But i tried to make it better.

You got lost somewhere.

I tried to find you.

I tried to help you.

We can talk about old times as much as we want.

But its not gonna change.

The past is bitter sweet.

Our present is nothing.

Our future looks bleak.

Im not asking you to pick among us.

Im asking for a friend.

It seems you cant even do that anymore.

I will always be there.

But it gets harder and harder.

Each day makes me care less and less.

What happened to that.

All I really needed?

I guess not.

kaybyeeee.

*this is not a poem. its just my thoughts. my one line thoughts. this is how my mind talks to me. this is how i wish i could talk in real life. sometimes it doesnt make sense. but those who know me understand me. will understand this. its hard to stay strong when you feel so bad about something but whats worse? holding onto something thats just not there anymore? or just letting go and keeping it as just a memory....an experience...we'll see.*

-Kim

your right.

-Yep

your right. everything ive said is true. and when you can finally admit that you have not been there for me at all when ive most needed you, then maybe things can be ok. maybe when you start making time in your life then maybe things can be ok. im not mad dont get me wrong. im just over it. you make time in your life for everyone around you but not me...so does that mean that because im not around you i dont count. ive tried. believe me ive tried to reach out but your not there. and even when you are i know your hearts not in it. i dont want to talk about it unless you can see where im coming from. dont get defensive. im not attacking you but your not perfect. i know im not. but you have to see. you dropped me, you put other people before me when i was hurting, you abandoned me. so im over it. sorry.

-Kim

All around and away we go

I had the craziest dream last night... Me and all my friends were at this concert and we were obsessing over the lead singer (obviously) and so we snuck backstage and tried to get his autograph and when we did the room turned into this neighborhood and he said that he was gonna shoot off this crossbow at us and the last one alive he was gonna marry.... so we all started running; needless to say this WAS a scary dream for me; so anyways I ran into this house, or at least tried to, and it was locked. So he cornered me and we had a conversation about why he was trying to kill us and he was like if i have obsessive and crazy fans shouldnt i be allowed to be obsessive and crazy? it was weird. well anyways the door behind me opened and i ran in and locked the door and he laid his crossbow down outside the door and walked off down the street. The people that opened the door asked me what was going on and eventually took me home. It was weird and I cant stop thinking about it....which means I am obviously listening to the singer right now as I type.

53 days till Aveda. Till I start my new life. At the Devendra Banhart concert on monday night, I met this girl that had gone to Aveda. I overheard her talking to her friends about going into work the next morning and how many clients she had on tuesday so I asked her if she went to hair school. She said ya why and I was telling her how I was about to start the Aveda Institute and she got so excited for me. She was giving me all this amazing advice and telling me about different salons that were good and how she thought I would have no problem at the school. It was so great talking to her. It eased my nerves a little about starting this brand new thing in my life and I am confident that I will do well.

I need new clothes. I want a new tattoo. So I think its about time to start making sacrifices and saving my money for a few weeks so that I can get my boootyful new tattoo and then hit up a bunch of vonderful thrift stores. Sounds like a plan. :]

I have a lot on my mind. I cant really think right now. Or actually I cant really put into words what I am thinking right now. My hair looks hella messy right now. My eye liner is smudging all over my eyes. My makeup looks like I put it on in the dark. Needless to say ive had a great morning......not

im too tired to find a picture or really anything else to go on this worthless post. love you bye

-Kim

Its nights like that...

ATTENTION: exactly 63 days from now I will be starting my journey to becoming a cosmetologist. As the day gets closer and closer my nerves begin to shake me more and more. After getting my hair cut at Aveda the other day, I started getting worried. What if I don't do well. What if I don't fit it. Will I make friends? Will I succeed and become the person I've dreamed of being. This past weekend my best friend and I found ourselves in the hallway of a loft in downtown Athens discussing our future and the next step in our lives. She is close to getting the credits she needs to transfer and she shares the same fears I do. Once I go to a different school... Will I make friends? It seems that no matter what school one goes to, one of the biggest concerns is whether or not friends will be made. Yes we should be concentrating on getting out of the school but if you really think about it, friends are what get you through. Friends are what make the biggest difference in your experience. If you don't have friends then school seems almost unbearable. I have faith that both her and I though will be able to find people that we get along with and make it out of school in no time. :]

This past weekend was that same friends birthday. We had a pre party on thursday night, friday night we had a girls dinner at the Wasabi House and then she and I met up with the guys and headed to the lake. We spent that night talking out on the dock mixed in with random dance sessions and singing as loud as we could. It was for sure a good night. The next day we relaxed on the boat and Daniel went tubbing for the first time and loved it :] after that we got ready and headed to athens for megs official party. It was a long night and had a few bumps in it but other than that it was so much fun. After a long weekend with amazing friends I am quiet exhausted and ready for some relaxing nights of gossip girl, glee, modern family, and of course jersey shore :]

I spend most of my time at work on the internet stalking facebook, reading random yahoo news articles, and looking through random blogs and what not. Sometimes I am puzzled by certain things I read. It seems that some people try to be too intellectual and misunderstood but it doesn't seem to flow right. I respect everyone that writes and I love reading how people write. I for one write like I talk which for some seems juvenile but its the best way I can express myself. When I read some people talking like 40 year old philosophers, I can't help but laugh a little; it just seems a bit silly that kids my age think they are so misunderstood and so insightful but in reality we are barely adults, how much insight do you really have on the world..... how misunderstood can you really be...We are the most predictable generation in my opinion. We talk, we dress, we act how trends, magazines, and media tell us to. We are all striving for a voice and diversity yet we cling to trends. You say that you are so different, you dress weird to turn heads and make statements, you write like you are so misunderstood and intellectual but you are not different cause there are thousands of others EXACLY like you. Youve gotta love Generation Me, the generation of wannabe hipsters.

-Kim

Sometimes saying nothing is best.

It is the hardest thing in the world for me to sit back and watch a friend get hurt. I promised. Saying nothing is literally impossible for me. I live to let my opinion be known even when no one wants to know it. But I promised. I love you to death. You are amazing. Dont let anyone make you feel second best. Okay. Thats all I can say. Thats all I should say. OH and one last thing. I am always here.

Remember when we were little and we would play dress up? We always wanted to be older. We envisioned ourselves as these cool adults who knew exactly what to do and say. If little Kim saw me now......would she approve of how I was living my life? Would she be happy that she grew up to be me?

This is my favorite portrait by Sally Mann. It reminds me of little kim and how every now and then its ok to return to my childhood and just dream.

-Kim

On to the Next One.

Im pissed. Cocorosie is TOMORROW and i do not have the money to purchase a ticket. Sometimes I question whether or not Aveda is worth saving all this money for. I question it for about a milla second then i slap myself for being so stupid for even thinking that. Aveda has been my dream since I can remember and I am finally getting the chance to go! Of course its worth it.

I just got back from the most amazing weekend at the lake. It was my moms birthday yesterday and let me say one thing. I can only hope and pray that I get my mom and dads aging genes cause they both look amazing for their age! I am so blessed and so thankful to have such a good relationship with both my parents. This past weekend, my dad had to go out of town for his defense force weekend so my mom and I took a road trip up to the lake. The house is on Hartwell and the area it is in is pretty secluded. The house is beautiful and so quiet and peaceful. My mom and I went up after traffic died down on friday and got there when it was dark. Because it is in a secluded area, there are not many lights or even signs of other people around. The area is soo dark and quiet and any little sound outside can send chills up your spine. Of course my mom and I being two semi defenseless females were scared out of our minds driving down the pitch black extremely LOOOOOOOOOONG driveway. No lights were on in the house and we had to figure out how to get this key out of this little box thingy. We both kept jumping at any little sound even though we had two flashlights and two lanterns. We finally made it into the house and did the ritual "house check". I, being the scaredy cat that I am, grabbed the biggest knife that i could find and followed my mom around the house as we checked all the doors and under all the beds. We finally gave the house an "OK" and unpacked our stuff and settled down in some comfy chairs. We spent the rest of the night laughing about how chicken we were and tucked in for a great night sleep. Saturday morning was spent at "Evas" the best little breakfast place where for about $3 you can get a full plate of delicious breakfast foods. After that we headed to Cha Ram park and took a quick hike then found a nice rock over looking some rapids and talked for a long time. My sister and her boyfriend met us at the house a little bit later and that night my moms best friend was able to come up and surprise my mom and we had an awesome night of canoeing and smores. After this weekend, I felt so blessed to be so close with my mom. She is an amazing person and the best friend anyone could ask for :)

So after doing that list in the last post it really made me feel better so here is the list of things on Kims mind right now:

-I wish people werent such creeps

-I wish you understood

-I wish you wouldn't change for the worse

-I wish I could see you

-I wish you would get over yourself

-I wish I could be back at the lake

-I wish it was thursday so I could be with my beautiful best friends :)

-I wish my dad would sleep in past 3:45 every morning

-I wish I hadsome pizza right now

-I wish I could just stop talking to you without you getting offended

-I wish you would leave me alone and stop being so clingy

-I wish I knew your intentions

-I wish you knew how I really felt about you

-I wish you werent such a coward

-I wish I could eat at chipotle every day of my life

-I wish people werent so lame

-I wish you loved yourself as much as I love you

-I wish it was Tuesday so I could watch Glee tonight (im so lame but its a great show)

-I wish I had new clothes

-I wish you weren't so vain and conceited

-I wish I wasn't at work

-I wish I didn't always get attacked by mosquitoes

-I wish I could get a hair cut.

THE END

-Kim

All I can think about is Mellow Mushroom and you. Too bad neither is gonna happen. Today at least

My mind has been running wild for the past few weeks. I cant just stop and take a break. Its like now that I am finally happy and accepting things as they are, all the things I dealt with poorly or didnt deal with at all are racing through my head and I cant stop thinking about them. And its not even that. The events of the past few weeks have also plagued my brain causing loss of sleep and mad headaches. as stupid as this sounds, i wish i could just remove my brain for a while and not think. I would love to have like 5 minutes of just emptiness where I wouldnt have to deal with anything or think about anything. Lists. Everybody always says that lists save their lives, lists help them out so much. So here is my little "list":

-I wish i could blink my eyes once and all thoughts of you would be gone.

-I wish for once you would understand my requests and just be a good friend to me.

-I wish you realized that I am leaving you alone so leave me alone.

-I wish you have never called me. I know it was a one time thing. You were using me for my advice. Not cause you wanted to be friends with me.

-I wish you would realize how beautiful you are and embrace your amazing self.

-I wish you weren't so far away from the one you love.

-I wish I could just skip a couple years and find you.

-I wish you would be careful with your life. You mean the world to me and sometimes you scare me.

-I wish you would live your life and stop dwelling on what could go wrong or anything like that.

-I wish you werent so full of yourself.

-I wish you would just hang out with me

-I wish you wouldn't play me like a fool. I am not an idiot. Dont effing lie to my face.

-I wish halloween costumes werent so expensive.

-I wish i was eating Mellow Mushroom right now.

-I wish i was outside instead of in this office.

-I wish it would be friday so I could be at the lake with my mom.

-I wish you would start doing something with your life.

-I wish you would put a shirt on. your not that hot.

-I wish I wish with all my heart to fly with dragons in a land apart.

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-Kim

Rock Me Mama Like a Wagon Wheel

I literally have nothing to say.

Ive been putting off posting something for like a good week now. It dawned on me that I have really only written about my problems and the stupid drama that has been in my life. But for the past few weeks there has been no drama in my life. There has been no fights. No anxiety. No stress. I dont feel like I have to walk on egg shells around people. I feel like now more than ever, since I have just been me and no one else, I havent had to deal with problems. Because to be honest if you come to me with drama, if you have drama with me, im probably not gonna care enough to fight you.

I felt entirely too lame driving into work today. Im a self proclaimed weirdo. I do and say things off beat. But today I think i hit anall time lame when I finally realized something. I drive by North Springs High School everyday on my way to work. There are usually a few kids walking to school on the sidewalk closest to me and they usually look a lot cooler than me. Of course me being the lame ass that I am, I think Im pretty cool goin to work, drivin my car, listening to loud music. So for some reason, I always turn on like really ghetto rap music when I drive by these kids. I put on my ray bans and kind of lean my seat back a little. I realized how lame I was today when I was scrabbling to put in my current "lookin cool drive by song"-Women Lie, Men Lie. As I finally popped the music in and put the shades on I realized that a bus full of high schoolers was staring at me the entire time I was doing this. My windows were down so they were most likely confused as to why i went from blasting some depressing Taylor Swift to attempting to be gangsta with some yo gotti....The light turned green and I drove away promptly changing it back to my normal morning ritual of depressing songs to really pep me up before 9 hours of sitting on my computer in a freezing cold office. YAY for full time jobs!!!

So staying true to my weird behavior, I am currently blasting A Day to Remembers "1958" in my office which is probably another type of music that doesnt quite fit my "look". Whatever though nothing I do or say really fits my look. I gave up trying to fit my look a long time ago. I would prefer to be free rather than tied down to silly genres of style that will mean nothing to me 10 years from now. just saying.

And to you and you. Good luck this next year. You will do great things and great things WILL happen for you. Dont give up on whats going on. Youve been a fighter since I met you years ago and I know that part of you hasnt changed. GOOD LUCK!!! and to YOU. I sometimes wish i could delete you. from everything. my phone. my facebook. my memory. my life. truth is i came to a realize not to long ago that i dont care. its sad. but true. SORRY!

LOVE. my beautiful best friends

-Kim

Im sippin on some sunshine

I've got my life in a suitcase,

I'm ready to run, run, run away..

I've got no time, 'cause I'm always trying to run, run, run away

'Cause everyday in here feels like it's only a game.

I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase...

I need a better outlet for writing my negative thoughts. After rereading my last post I realized, what good is it doing me for people to read my negative thoughts. This blog has gotten to the point where sometimes I only post about whats bothering me rather than whats going on in my life and what is good. The truth is I live a very simple life and thats all I really need. Lately I have been living with

out drama which makes it even better. I work very hard to be able to enjoy myself and I put a lot of effort into making sure the people closest to me are happy as well. I have some amazing family and friends. I have this one friend, sigmakappamu 4lyfe, who literally has changed my life this summer. This girl shows me the joy in the little things. She makes life fun (like instead of having the same get togethers every week, she suggests hat parties and such how creative!) she is spontanious and doesnt dwell on the bad things. Even when she is a little bit upset about something, the way she confronts people about them is

the most non argressive way possible. She is amazing and i think I speak for everyone that knows her when i say she is truly a blessing to have as a friend. ALSO. I miss my KayPeaaaaa. She is my other half. My heart and soul. It is so sad to have school starting back and not be with her. We had so many plans for this year and we both went our separate directions. Hopefully after this first semester we will be reunited again. I truly truly truly miss her. Boo and Babygirl. All I really needed......

Life is meant to be lived. I am so happy to be able to go to a school like Aveda. I did decently in high school and did well when I tried in college but since the 6th grade I have always known that I was meant to do something different. Traditional education is not for everyone and there are only so many jobs that make you stand out as a person. I do not want to work a desk job for the rest of my life. I want to go out and experience the world and pave my own path in hopes that one day when I have kids, they will see that anything is possible and happiness, not wealth, is what you should strive for. So what if I am going to beauty school. I still have so much potential to support my self and be successful and at the end of the day, I will come home and actually be happy and I will look forward to working. The Official Countdown to Aveda: 97 days!!!! Ah its so far away so I am just praying these next months go by as fast as possible.

On another note. I miss nicaragua. I miss the pure lo

ve and happiness that I felt being with all those amazing children. I want to go back.

-Kim

I never meant to block your sunshine

There is nothing better than a great weekend with good people. Friday was spent having a lovely night with my friends. Then saturday it was off to athens! I am so blessed to have such an amazing sister. I got to see her new adorable house and have a great night in with her and some friends.

Today is sort of a weird day for me. I would have been starting back school like most normal kids my age and I feel weird that I will not be going back to kennesaw. Its kind of sad because i met some great people there and had an amazing year there but I know that the decision I made to go down a different path is the best one for me. So as I anxiously await November 29th, I wish everyone a great first semester and expect visits from me!!!

I have so many things on my mind right now. I have calmed down from my insane week and I have collected my thoughts. im still crazy but i think this time ill be able to control my crazy. blah ill have more to write when my mind isnt so full and dizzy. thank you goodbye

-Kim

I've got some issues that nobody can see and all of these emotions are pouring out of me

Everyone please disregard that last post. I was stressed about a certain situation that I am COMPLETELY over now. duly noted.

I have been lucky enough this summer to meet some really amazing people. Ive had to sort through a lot of haters before I could really find these people but it was so worth it. I am happier than I have been in a long time currently. There is no drama, no fights, NOTHING going on with my friends right now and its so refreshing. We all realize we are grown ups now and there is no need for all the high school/middle school drama bullshit.

Needless to say while I am so happy right now that doesnt mean that my life is perfect. I go through my hard times, a lot. But for some reason it has gotten easier to deal with them. I see the big picture now not the little hurtful details. But the one thing that is really getting to me right now is BOYS. I mean whats new. I feel like I finally have like a crush and I have not had this feeling in SO long. Like I didnt even have this feeling with certain boyfriends. This is so amazing to feel something and be excited about something but I forgot about all the anxiety and stress that comes with this new found crush. Is it acceptable for me to text? What signs are bad signs? Am I being to annoying? Should I text to see what they are up to? Or should I just scratch all of that and wait for a text from him? Its so stupid. Like I decided to just stop over analyzing all this and just be myself. I understand completely that myself is a little overbearing and too talkative sometime but I feel like eventually someone will love that trait about me. Maybe me being myself in these situations will help me find that someone sooner. I am not ashamed of being me and if the certain person right now isnt feelin it then so be it. It wasnt meant to happen. No harm no foul. AND no tears at all....boys are not worth tears cause lord knows the majority of guys dont shed tears for you!

Its officially August. I start Aveda in 3 months. Words cannot explain my excitement. Uhm and a quick story real fast. I have a light green lighter that I stuck an Aveda Sticker on. The other night me and Sarah had let someone use it then they gave it back. I know they gave it back but I dont know what I did with it after that. I later went to let someone else borrow it and it was gone! That night I was carrying my brown purse and I emptied the entire purse out onto my friend Daniels bed. My favorite lucky lighter was no where to be found. THE NEXT DAY. I decided to carry another purse and I emptied all the contents of the brown bag into a red over the shoulder bag. That night someone asked if anyone had a lighter. I dug around my bag and nonchalantly pulled out a mini lighter, my mini green Aveda lighter. Me and Sarah literally freaked out. I know that i lost that lighter the night I lent it out to people but SOMEHOW that lucky Aveda lighter made it back to me, in a different purse. crazy. fate. love.

*My New Home :-]]]]]]]]*

-Kim

Heres to a night full of The Kinks, Kooks, and Happy Dreamings.

IM GOING INSANE

my head is here.

my mind is there.

The only thing keeping me slightly sane is my music right now.

But if im not careful

Im gonna be swept away with the sweet sweet m

elodies that are carrying my thoughts elsewhere

I literally feel like a hungry animal.

The inability to obtain what I desire is making me into this creature.

Its consuming my every thought.

But.

My efforts have been defeated

And my hunger is not satisfied.

fml.

-Kim

But if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too

At what age are we supposed to stop acting immature and take responsibility for our lives? I am so sick of being around people who feel the need to control everyone and everything just to get their ways. We are 19 almost 20 now. When does the drama stop? Lately, I have been surrounding myself with people who see the bigger picture....if that makes sense. They dont let the little things get them upset, they donthold grudges, and they definitely are not two faced or fake. I have found people that actually can survive without drama and bullshit....and i love it.

I have not been able to get one certain thing off my mind for a while now. I have to make myself not think about this thing to get anything done, even sleep. Cause if im thinking about it before i sleep, the night flies by in a blur or dreams....about this thing.....and i wake up even more depressed that the happiness i found in my dreams will most likely never be fulfilled in real life. Im reaching out for something thats out of my reach. and it sucks. and I would 100% give up anything that could get in the way of this if i was given just one shot. but its like im invisible. and i cant seem to get noticed. i freeze. i stutter. my cheeks get red and hot and its just awful. everytime i think of this thing i get happy and lose hope all at once. AND i have not been playing any games or teasing at all since i realized that none of that matters and this is all i really want.....fml

So i counted the days till Aveda, and lets just say its over 100 days away and im DYING. i want to start school so bad. Aveda is literally the only thing that can distract me from my "thing". When im not thinking about the above, im thinking about Aveda. Is it weird to be so obsessedwith a school? Like my entire life ive always liked school but ive never been excited about it but this school is just so different and so perfect for me. :]]]]]]]] now if i can only convince sarah to go with me hmmmmmm :]]]]]]

My love ms. Sarah Martin.

-Kim

A city sparkles in the night How can it glow so bright?

My friend and I decided that it would be a great idea to make a television show following our lives. The trials and tribulations of growing up but not like Laguna Beach or the Hills or anything that is obviously set up. We would set it up like the real world perhaps but just not in a controlled environment, if that makes any sense. We would be the narrators and the show would focus in on an event that is shaping that person (i.e. my going to cosmetology school, his brand new company) and it would also touch on the stories of our friends that we are closest with. I truly think that if we really sat down and figured it out, we could make it into a really great show.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, about boys and relationships and that sort of thing. It has come to my attention that boys and girls truly are not equal. Why is it that when a girl likes a guy she has to wait patiently to even just get him to start talking to her. And if she starts getting over bearing or clingy or expecting too much too soon, the guy is in no way in the wrong for gettin the hell out of the situation. He isnt expected to do anything, its like the girls feelings are not really even an item of concern to him. BUT when the tables are turned, and a girl is just playin the field and a guy gets attached to her, its like she is the biggest bitch in the world. The guy has every right to throw a tantrum and trash her to all his friends. SO why is it that? Why is it that a girl cannot treat guys the same way guys treat girls. So what? A girl kisses you or hugs on you at a party and all of a sudden she is your property? I do not think so. I am not in any way promoting girls or boys to go out and be promiscuous but if a girl flat out says, she does not want to date then you should know exactly what you are getting into if she starts flirting with you or anything like that. The girl should not be expected to owe anyone an apology (except in a certain situation i had with my best friend but its kind of different with him and i was in the wrong for that situation) but back to what i was say, guys dont apologize to every girl they "lead on" so why should I have to? Everyone just needs to grow up and see that when a girl, says something like she just really is not trying to date AT ALL, that she is not going to feel that bad when she ditches you for the next phase she goes through. As harsh as that sounds its r

eality. And anyone reading this, like i said before, none of the above relates to the situation I had with my best guy friend, it was different and it as my mistake and I took and am still taking the consequences for what I did.

Lastly, I would like to touch on one certain subject. A question about my tattoos came up on my formspring so I thought it would be a good idea to clear the air about my tattoos. I got the tattoos for me. It was my way of expressing stages in my life and no, I did not go crazy. I have always been this person, but i went to a school that made me hide who I really am but the truth is I got two of the tattoos while I was still at marist so people should have expected me to do this. And yes, I do understand that when I am old they will be all saggy and gross but guess what, so will the rest of my body so I really dont care too much. Ha. I know that when I am older and I have kids and they ask about my tattoos, I am going to be able to look back and see what each one represented and yes, although I tell people that they dont mean anything, they do. Actually every single one of them has a meaning to me but I DO prefer not to tell people because it is a personal part of my thoughts that provoked me to get each one. And one last thing about my formspring, I have gotten a lot of questions about who I am still friends with and if I still like certain people. Let me get one thing straight. I do not hate anyone. But yes, I have fallen off the Marist radar. Do i care? Not really. I got left out of a lot of things in high school and I at first was so bitter about it but I came to the realization that marist is a school of certain stereotypes and social standards and I just do not support that. I love the school but some people just have the wrong ideas about life and I chose not to surround myself with those type of people. But I mostly chose not to "hang out" with a lot of high school friends because a lot of people do not fully understand the stage I am at in my life. I have worked since the tenth grade, and some of my other friends from high school have not worked a real job a single day in their lives. They still are so dependent on their parents and that is just unreal to me. I need to surround myself with people that understand and are going through the same struggles I am going through because I do not have time for the petty arguments that sometimes come up with some old friends. They see the smallest issues as horrible problems and its like our perspectives are just 100% different. Idk I dont mean to make anyone angry but I mean, some thing are just not worth fighting over to me and I just ignore what I can because i dont need the unnecessary drama. sorry.

** i would like everyone to feast their eyes upon the world record holder for the most tattooed senior citizen. her tattoos still look pretty well kept.....sorry but maybe some people who actually take care of their bodies wont get extremely unattractive sags.**

-Kim

It sucks when you wake up happy from a dream that will most likely never come true.

No but really. Im so serious. Have you ever had a really great dream and you wake up the next morning and your smiling so hard and you just have the best feeling.....until you realize that it most likely will never come true. I had that dream last night. I woke up feeling so great, so happy, i may or may not have even had a little chuckle as i got out of bed. And then it hit me. It felt like i had run into my door or some kind of wall. I realized that this wonderful dream I had, that made me feel so happy, probably will never happen. And the thought of that makes me want this dream to come true even more!! AHH. i hate reality sometimes.

I have been so happy lately. Even though this past weekend really could have sucked, I didnt let the negatives bother me. Someone recently told me that when they are feeling down they start thinking of all the positives in their life. Even if they feel like there is nothing good, they just start naming good things in their life. The more positive thoughts you put in your head, the more positive energy you will obtain. I have a lot of good stuff going on in my life. My parents and i get along really well, I have a great career ahead of me, I know exactly what I want to do with my life; so why worry about a few little things that arent helping me achieve my goals? I guess my point is, I always care too much. I stress too much about things that do not really matter. And while some people have gotten upset with this recent finding, I just have to stop worrying about what people are gonna say about me (ya hard to believe I actually do think about what people are saying about me sometimes and yes some of the things do hurt my feelings) I cannot control other peoples actions and if they chose to hurt me, then that is on their conscience and as a believer in karma, I can only hope that they get back exactly

what they are doing to me (or did to me).

My lovely friend Kate is coming back from Africa on saturday and I look forward to lunch with her on sunday!! Please please please everyone, religious or not, pray that she has a safe trip home. I am literally so proud of this girl. And every single person she is helping in Africa, I am sure, feels so blessed because Kate is one of the most selfless people I know and she just exerts so much love and passion and I cannot even imagine how many lives she has touched. After everything she has been through, it is amazing to see how she can still reach out to others and help others even at some of her harder times. I am excited to see where she goes in life because I know she is capable of great things. Love you Kate

-Kim

You may say that I'm a dreamer, But I'm not the only one

I have nothing on my mind.

There is no point in this blog post.

But i felt like typing something.

So sorry for wasting your time.

People confuse me.

I am so tired.

I had an awkward encounter last night.

I am dreading a certain something.

I want another tattoo.

I want chipotle.

I want to be able to tell people off without sounding bitchy.

I want to start school now.

I almost just fell asleep at work.

I am going to make some dank asssss tea.

I feel like something is not right.

Very few people aka one. Knows who i secretly adore.

WAKE ME UP!!!!!

-Kim

Listen. and. Repeat.

Do you ever feel like your standing still and everything else around you is going so fast. I feel so stuck right now. There are so many things I wish I could say to certain people but I just can not find the energy to say them.....because some of the comments are mean but true. I wish people could see for themselves how other people see them. I wish I could see how other people see me. But then again, I really do not care how other people see me. I know people think I am "bitchy" at times or according to my formspring "hypocritical" but at the end of the day I am myself. Can the people calling me all these things say the same? Why waste your breath, time, and energy trying to make me be something I am not. If you think I am a bitch then move on. I mean go ahead talk to me about it but if its something that you constantly are annoyed with then trust me, I am not holding you back...just move on. And speaking of moving on. I feel that I have. Not just frommy most recent thing but from the original thing. Since the very first heartbreak, I have kept my guard up. Being hurt is my biggest fear and when I trust someone enough to let them into my heart, I feel betrayed and lied to when they move on from me. But ever since I got this message from someone its like I finally realized, I am ok. I will be ok. The lucky thing about a broken heart is that when it is healed, it is so much stronger. So I am thankful to all you guys that broke my heart because when I do find that one person that makes mehappier than ever, I will be able to share my whole, strong, loving heart with them. And that makes me happy.

I do not know what to do. I feel like I am chasing something I have chased many times before and it has always ended poorly. I wish just this once it would work and all my hard work and efforts would pay off. I know if I got this, it wouldn't just cure all my problems but I do believe it would save me time from stressing and worrying and being sad. Its the idea of wanting something that I cant have....but not really. Because I could have this thing its just never been brought up or talked about. AND it also plays on some of my biggest fears. Things seem positive now...but then again thats ho

w its always been. Good at times, stupid and time consuming at times. I wish that I could just make my desire for it just go away and I could move on with my life but I know me and I know that when I want something so bad I obsess until it is mine. BLAH.

All I can dream about lately is Aveda. All of my thoughts, when I am not obsessing over the above, are Aveda. My life is about to start and I am just beaming with excitement. I honestly can not put into words how excited I am. I was reading one of my old journals just recently, from about 6th grade, and in it I talk about how I wanted to do hair and/or make up one day AND I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO DO IT!!!!! My love for cosmetology roots from my love for helping people. I have grown up aroun

d so many people friends especially that are just unhappy with their lives and insecure. I want to be able to not only make them look beautiful but help them feel beautiful. Every single person in the world has beauty and I want to be able to bring out that beauty and show them that no matter what flaw they feel they h

ave, they are still beautiful. When you look great you feel great as well. Have you ever gotten a hair cut and just sat in the mirror looking at this new you. I feel like its the most amazing feeling getting a new look (hair make up etc.) You feel alive and unstoppable. Its such a rush to walk out the doors of a salon feeling like your beautiful and no matter what anyone says, you just got a great new look and no one can bring you down. AHHHH its just amazing. I could go on for days about it. But I will spare you

and stop there.

Its over. And I am glad. My life makes sense now. I do not have to worry anymore about a life that is not strong or happy. I am an adult. Even if you haven't found yourself at this point in your life, you should at least be on your way. And you are not. Hopefully things go well. Hopefully you find yourself. Hopefully we can sit down one day and talk like normal people.

Hopefully.

-Kim

I dedicate this post to you. Because no matter what. Through thick and thin, we will always have eachother. <3

Never have I ever.

Never have I ever wanted to be at work less.

Never have I ever been so disappointed in someone.

Never have I ever felt so used by someone that should have loved me.

Never have I ever been more tired.

Never have I ever been so surprised by how much good can be in peoples hearts.

Never have I ever wanted some candy more.

Never have I ever wanted to watch glee so bad.

Never have I ever wanted you back.

Grow up.

There are some amazing people out there in the world. With each new day, I get a new little surprise from someone different showing their true character. I got a message from the most unlikely person last night and it gave me hope that through all the bullshit and drama, there are still good people out there in the world. I am scared though. It seems like my best friend is going down a very destructive path and it really worries me. He seems to be drifting further and further away from his goals and it is so hard to watch. I wish he would just see that I do care about him so much no matter what and I am here for him.

So as stupid as this sounds I have been addicted to a couple very weird shows lately: Laguna Beach (oldie but goodie), the hills (obvi), Gossip Girl (xoxo), pretty little liars (dumb but good), and GLEE (AMAZING). I really do have a life I swear but I work close to 45 hours a week in a boring office building so Hulu and other online tv show sites have become my best friends. I realized that all these shows have something in common which is the one thing that draws me to them. They all go through some sort of high school/college drama which is so addicting to watch. I myself hate drama but I always find myself in it. I dont like fighting with people because I have a hard time fully trying to say what I want to say and I have a hard time filtering what is on my mind vs. what I should say so when I do have drama with people I tend to get almost....bitchy. Watching these shows makes me dream about my life as a reality star and what a show about my life would be like. I mean I am def not a heart throb like Kristen Cavalari or Lauren Conrad, and I am not an amazing singer like Rachel from Glee but I feel like I have a lot to say about a lot of things and on good days, my friends and I have some pretty fun/funny times/moments. I am honestly pondering a tv show I could start...that would be so fun I think.

I have always had some sort of an anger problem. But lately my anger is almost overpowering my life. I feel the urge to punch anyone that irks me in the face and I dont know how guilty I would truly feel. Take for example the other day. My sister used my computer without asking. Small thing I know, but EVERY single time she comes home I politely ask her to ASK ME before she uses my computer. This this she came home she didnt ask and I got so mad I told her that next time she used it without asking I would rip her face off and sew it to mine and go do terrible things.....I think my mom was pretty worried.

Anywho. todays a good day. I cant really keep my eyes open but I am trying SUPER hard. ohkaaaybuhhheyeeee

-Kim

Awake these people up and show them they keep dreamin' Breathe, Stretch, Shake, Let it Go

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

-Marilyn Monroe

I think that the above quote is the best evidence as to why I love Marilyn Monroe so much. She was so real and so open and most importantly she was so comfortable being who she was even in a time that didnt accept many of the things she said or did. I freaking love this woman. AND contrary to any ones beliefs (some question on my formspring) I DO NOT think I look like her and I am not trying to be her at all. She is just one of my idols and I look up to her. The END.

So. I have an anger problem. I need to take up kick boxing or something because I am at work and I was almost just in tears because I was just so annoyed with this man that works here. And the littlest things bother me too. Like for example what got me annoyed this morning was my boss brought in donuts for the office and they are sitting on the ledge above my desk. These two men that work here came in and just started shoveling the donuts into their mouths and talking and stuff and it BOTHERED me so much I had to excuse myself and walk down to my moms office and pace the floor (i threw some punches and jabs into the pacing as well just to cool off lol) and just little things make me SO angry sometimes so I decided to make a list of the things that have really made me angry lately:
-talking with food in mouth (dont do it, its disgusting and the sound of the food and someone talking is just gross)
-When people scratch their backs on their doors (dont ask, someone at work does it and i want to scream every time they do it)-When people dont act their age (young and old people)
-When people do not take responsibility for their actions and then complain about how much their lives suck (this is not meant to be a stab at any one person just a generalization)
-Telling people something probably a million times yet they arent able to get it through their thick skulls
-My DKNY Be Delicious perfume. The smell is too strong and it makes me ralf.
-When people are always complaining about little problems that are literally the stupidest things in the world
-When people do not take me seriously
-When people think to far into things I do or say to them and put words into my mouth that I never said (once again this is not a stab at any one person its just a generalization)
-The fact that I promised my parents I wouldnt get another tattoo but I am DYING to get one last one on my rib cage
-The fact that I have been working since I was in tenth grade and some of my friends have never worked a day in their lives (like at a real job. but then they complain about the little bit of work a parent asks them to do or if they have to volunteer or work at a little one or two week thing)
-When people spring something on me last minute and then get mad when I have to say no because I have other plans or I am at work. (i.e. a friend let me borrow something and two days ago asked if she could have it back. i of course was like ya ill try to get it to you. well friend wanted it right then but I couldnt get it to them cause i was at work. I told them that I would try to work something out but because I was so busy between that time and the time they needed it, it may not happen. It ended up that I was unable to get this friend their object back and they called me while I was at work and was like well what am i supposed to do. and honestly i really wanted to just be like uhm live without it for a couple days. YOU HAVE A MILLION OTHER ONES SO DEAL WITH IT. if you wanted it back so badly then you should have asked for it back the day after or even the day i used it. youll get it freaking back but dont call me at work and question why i cant get it back to you at that second. I HAVE A JOB. and no you cant go into my house when no one is there just to get this one little thing. ok? thanks)

ANYWHO. sorry about that last one. I just do not understand people sometimes. Certain things can be lived without and to try and make me feel bad about something that was completely in someone elses control is just stupid. BUT regardless of all of the above, I am sooo happy right now. Its thursday and the next few days are going to be so great! The quarter finals for the world cup are on tomorrow and saturday and the peachtree road race is sunday (im not running but i would love to go watch!! any one want to go with me?) and the fourth is sunday as well and hopefully the crew will be able to find something fun to do!!! Next weekend I am hopefully going to Aveda to pay for my kit so i am SOOO excited about that.
HAHAHAHAHA gotta love the crew

-Kim

Heres to having nothing to say

I have nothing important to talk about right now.

My weekend wasnt as fun as i thought it was going to be.

But i really dont care.

I am so happy right now purely because I hit rock bottom not to long ago.

And ever since then things have only gotten better for me.

I know what I want in my life.

I am no longer lost or confused.

And it feels amazing.

According to my formspring.com, someone would give it all to have a shot at love with me but they are afraid that I will say no if i knew who they were. My mom and I were talking about it so secret person out there, if your reading this, stay secret if you want but talk to me. over formspring or over my blog. :]]]

BUT i cant write much right now to be honest cause im watching BRAZZZZIIIIIIIIIILLLL dominate over chile so, i promise a good one tomorrow!!!

-Kim

I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?

Its June 24th, 2010 at 12:30 in the afternoon

and i think im dying.

No but really. I have the most violent hiccups of my life right now. I tried to swallow some water and I hiccuped while swallowing and well lets just say i spat the water everywhere. these hiccups are really starting to make my body sore too. Its like the best workout in the world. Weirdly though i actually am likin these hiccups. The sound is like a perfect "HIC-CUP". I have always liked weird things. I love the sound of my voice right when im losing it. I love sneezing because my sneeze is so loud (and over dramatized a bit) and sometimes i get so into the sneeze i end up hitting my head on something. The worst feeling in the world to me is when you HAVE to sneeze soooo bad but it just wont come out and you stand there staring at the sun trying to force the sneeze out and it just wont happen. And you feel so unsatisfied and defeated. Its horrible. Other weird things i like: peeling sunburn, clavicles, different shaped ears, chipped nail polish, people with too much jewelry on, burping after drinking something SUPER carbonated, scratching a really good scratch, peeling off scabs, talking to people i dont know, dancing in large crowds when no one else is dancing, and the list really goes on and on. I think im kind of a weird kid and if you dont think i am then thank you because that means that you have found some sort of normalcy in me that i havent found yet and i would love to know what it is. :)
Ive got a good weekend ahead of me and I cant wait to be with all my friends (its not like im not with them everynight of every day lol) but I also get to see my sister and all my family members on sunday and I honestly can not remember the last time we all got together so it will be nice. The office i work at is so quite right now and time is literally not moving. i looked at the clock ten minutes ago and i just looked at it again and its only been about 2 minutes. But I KNOW FOR A FACT its been ten minutes.

So, update on Aveda. I have one more appointment to make and then I start November 29th. At my next appointment with the admissions lady, i will be paying my application fees and KIT FEE!!!!!! AHHHH im so excited. I will have my very own Aveda Kit! complete with mannequin heads, clippers, brushes, combs, straightner, dryer, diffuser, books, and more. And of course my very own Aveda Institute uniform shirts. I am just beyond excited. But it has me thinking so much about my future. I graduate from school christmas 2011. That is soooooo soon! And then i am done. I will be officially out in the real world. And there are so many things that I planned to do in college that I will no longer be able to do before im there. But at the same time a lot of those plans have come true. I wanted to find myself in college, I wanted to experience something new, I wanted to get a good education doing something I love to do and wont regret choosing years from now, and I want love. I think that in the year I will be at Aveda I will be able to accomplish most everything with the exception of love because you cant really accomplish love. Love happens. Which brings me to a point that has been on my mind for some time now. Some couples spend so much time trying to work on their love and try to make love happen again but when did love become something that we can control? Love is love. And it is a feeling and something that is rooted in your heart and once there grows into something amazing and everlasting. You cant work on a feeling. You cant make yourself feel something thats not truly in your heart.
anywho thats my two cents and a half on dat.
Im lookin forward to a good life. I will hit a lot of bumpy roads but I know I can be strong no matter what. Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. We are only given one life, no re-dos, so live it up and live it well :))))) have a great weekend all and keep the comments comin!!
-Kim

And may the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.

Look me straight in the eyes and tell me everything you have told me lately. Cant do it? Didnt think so.

So I have so much I want to write about. HOWEVER. All my thoughts are currently jumbled in my brain and I cant think what-so-ever. So while I take the day to organize my thoughts, I decided to take one of those surveys to fill in for todays post. Sound good? Ya i thought so too.

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten People:

1. You are my bestest friend and you have been there for me no matter what this summer. We have made what could have been a sucky summer into one of the best ones yet. You have no idea how much I cherish our friendship and I hope that we can stay friends forever and ever and ever!

2. Words cannot describe how happy I am that I met you this summer. You are an amazing girl and I looooooove you. bffffffsssssss :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

3. Through thick and thin you guys have been there for me. I love yall so much and I wish that I could repay you for all the amazing things yall have done for me. I am so thankful that we have such a good relationship and I hope that it only gets stronger with the years.

4. I secretly adore you.

5. You went from being a pretty great friend to being probably the worst friend possible. I really dont consider you a friend at all anymore. Your never there for me and I really dont feel like trying anymore than I already did. Sorry.

6. You are the fakest person I know. Maybe when you can be one personality for longer than a week, we could be friends again.

7. I love you with all my heart. Your the best friend someone could ask for. Please take care of yourself and dont let the little things bug you. You are an amazing girl and I wish you could see that. GofranksGO.

8. Sometimes I miss you. Sometimes I wonder why I wasted so much time with you. Sometimes I resent you. Overall though, im glad we arent us anymore. Its for the best. We arent as perfect as we thought we were.

9. Your just as bad as number 5. You just dont realize it. You talk a lot behind the backs of others and then get your feelings hurt when you find out someones talking about you. Karmas a bitch i guess.

10. You are a loser.

Nine things about myself:
1. I have some of the best friends possible. They are amazing people and you should probably get to know them
2. I sleep completely surrounded by pillows and stuffed animals. It makes me feel safe and not so lonely
3. I either really trust people or have very little trust in people. Theres no like middle ground for me
4. I love talking to people and making them laugh. Interacting with people is one of the best feelings in the world to me
5. Drama really stresses me out but a lot of times I find myself in the middle of it because I am usually friends with both sides and me being the stupid person i am tries to help work out both sides.
6. I am a very forgiving person as long as you talk to me. Im not going to waste my time on you though if your just sitting back and talking behind my back. Im still friends with some boyfriends/friends that have been so mean to me in the past purely because we have been able to talk things out and forgive eachother.
7. I have really bad ADHD the inattentive form of it so if it looks like im not paying attention to you just like wave your hand in front of me or something. And if you want me to do something for you I usually dont have a problem doing it but just remind me every once in a while cause my memory is not very good
8. I am extremely addicted to candy.
9. I have learned that living your life is better than dwelling on the past and wasting your life. I am very open and honest and I feel like it has benefited me so much. Get to know me. You may be surprised.

Eight ways to win my heart.
1. I love someone that can make me laugh for hours
2. Get me candy and baby back ribs
3. Be open and honest ALWAYS
4. Surprise me every now and again. Theres nothing more boring than doing the same thing every day
5. Take me on adventures
6. Dont try to make me jealous cause believe me I will get jealous and when I do its just not fun for either of us.
7. Have your own life and let me into it. Dont make me your whole life and I wont make you my whole life. Sharing is caring lol
8. Let me know your feelings :]]

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.
1. love
2. my family
3. friends
4. my future
5. boys
6. music
7. my fears

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Brush my teeth
2. Put on my most comfortable shirt
3. Fluff my pillow
4. Swan dive into bed
5. Listen to music
6. Shut my eyes

Five people who mean a lot
1. God.
2. My family.
3. The Crew (savy, drewbie, nasty, sarah, frednugs, jakey.....best crew ever lol)
4. My old math tutor Mrs. Ford. She is the reason why I passed high school
5. You (you know who you are. no matter what. ill always care)


Four things you're wearing right now.
1. A black and white top
2. Jean Capris
3. My favorite green flats
4. underwear

Three songs that you listen to often.
1. Pretty Boy Swag
2. With you (stars of track and field)
3. We do it for fun parts 1-5

Two things you want to do before you die.
1. Love someone with ALL of my heart.
2. Live with no regrets.

One confession.
1. Sometimes i find bad things in people just to be angry with them or just to hate them to prevent them from hurting me first.

** i want to hear yalls feedback. AND ALSO. please do not assume the ten things i would like to say to people are about you and freak out and text me all in a panic. Just give me a number and ill tell you who its referring to kay?**

-Kim